This is Going to be Hard.

I've been weaning Quinn.  So far, I've weaned him off of all the day feedings except for the one before his nap.  He wakes up, eats breakfast, and then eats regular food until his mid morning nap.  Then after that, I don't nurse him again until bedtime.  Usually around 8:00.  It's been about 4 days.  Right now he's not dealing well.  He is screaming because he wants to be nursed, and I'm trying REALLY hard not to just give in (even though I really want to ... it's hard to listen to him cry)  He screams and kicks and hits and arches his back ... it's not a pretty sight.  About 15 minutes ago I figured that if he was screaming while I held him, he might as well scream in his bed.  So I put him in his bed and walked away.  He did NOT appreciate that.  At this point, he isn't screaming anymore.  He just sounds pathetically sad.  It's a little heartbreaking.  I thought for sure he would go to sleep, but the little boy is just so darn stubborn ... he keeps stopping, and then crying again, and then quietly fussing and then crying again ... no doubt to tug at my heart.  I'm guessing he realizes this is the way to make me feel very guilty and make me want to sob.

I'm not a fan of this whole weaning, getting him into his own bed process.  But it needs to be done.  He bites me nearly every time I nurse him.

*sigh*

He's really good at crying.  Now he's started up full scream again.  Little does he know, he's sleeping in his own bed tonight.  (so far, in his 12 1/2 month life, he's slept next to me every night.  Truly spoiled, I know.) 

My neck hurts, my back hurts, my shoulder hurts from sleeping with my arm up and around him ... I'm ready to sleep like a normal person again.  I just hate this part where I feel like I'm breaking his spirit.  The only consolation is that I've done this several times before, and in a week, he'll be in his own bed and I'll be more comfortable at night. 

This will be a hard week.